Desperate Move?

Feeling slightly down that my e-mails have not been replied after sending in the photos, I surfed the internet for casting calls. I happened to come across an advertisement looking for Japanese females, or Chinese females who look like Japanese, or Pan-Asian females. I thought, what the heck…and sent my details as well as pictures to her. After all, even a kid asked if I’m a Japanese although I am pure Chinese. The only problem is I don’t have a video to be sent to them (ok, I admit, I didn’t see that requirement earlier on). Anyway, my camera died on me, so I can’t take a video of myself. Normally I would not have sent my details to a person just like that, especially when I don’t know which company that person is from.

Another company was looking for models between the age of 17 to 23 (I’m 23!!!) for the year 2007 calendar and postcards. Hmm…I wonder what kind of pictures do they want to take? Although I have visited their website and such, I’m still a little wary of this company. Anyway, I sent my details as well to this company. I guess I’m getting desperate. I’ll have to be more careful from now onwards.

Regarding the model in my dance school, my dance instructor told me that he doesn’t reply messages from strangers. And I am a stranger to him. So much for sending the message to him regarding his modelling school. I was advised to ask him when I see him this Saturday, at the said dance instructor’s BBQ party. Somehow, I don’t feel like asking anymore. I think my huge big ego has been punctured.

It’s been four hours since I’ve sent the first two e-mails and there’s no reply yet. Am I being impatient? From what I have read, I think I am being really, really impatient. Not getting any replies from them can be pretty depressing, and you’ll start wondering whether your looks are good enough, or whether you are skinny enough…etc. So, I have started running up and down the stairs at my office since I’ve been putting on weight lately. Writing this blog is also necessary for me as it has a therapeutical effect on me.

Many surprising things happened though. Firstly, my little cousin is going for an audition herself! It seems to be an audition for a reality show where four urban kids have to go through life in the village/countryside. Interesting. I hope she gets the part. I also found out, that my dance instructor, whom I mentioned before, did a TVC shoot himself today (as an extra)! Another dance mate was an extra for another TVC too… So why am I the only one who can’t even get a chance to go for auditions? *wails*